Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Cancer changes everything- - so I am learning. It changes you as a person, your relationships, your daily activities, your goals...life in general. Although change is hard, some of the changes are for the better. While I have changed, there are some things that will always remain the same. I am still the type-A and determined girl I have always been. While still head-strong, cancer has forced me to slow down and focus on the here and now. I have learned not to look to far ahead because it can be overwhelming. For now, I look to the end of consolidation and take every day one step @ a time.  

Today was the first day of the Spring 2013 semester. In my typical fashion I Skyped into one of my classes as I am not allowed to attend. I will continue to do school from home for the semester and I will walk in graduation this coming May. Although I see the light at the end of the tunnel it’s bittersweet. For the past 4 years or so, I’ve sat side by side with Kelly in class. Today I was at home- - there was no small talk during class, no sharing our dread as we listened to them go over the syllabus, and no laughing at our inside jokes. Although I am thrilled to be completing the semester via modern technology, I want to be sitting in the front row with Kelly (yes we are nerds). Although things have changed, many have not. We still do our routine study sessions with a whiteboard and all; it just takes place in another location- my living room. Although I am not there with her every Tuesday, she knows I will be by her side on graduation day in May. A small sacrifice for a big reward.
In addition to my APRN education, I’m getting insurance 101. I have to say, that is more stressful than my regular courses. While dealing with the insurance company can be stressful, I have my parents and Chris here to remind me not to worry about the small details.
While I continue to take it one step @ a time, there are little bumps along the way to make you realize that things do change. While there are changes, it is all about taking them in stride.

Till next time…KMS


  1. Keep smiling..You are doing BEYOND amazing!!

  2. Katelyn...I am so proud of you...You are so strong and determined...

  3. You are so right, Cancer DOES change everything;

    With my mom's Cancer I learned to enjoy life and live for the here and now because you never know what you will be dealt, with Chucky's Cancer I learned that in the end it just doesn't matter and that we are all put on this Earth for the journey that GOD planned for us; good or bad; I also despised Cancer and did not see any good in it But with your diagnosis and your positive attitude and outlook I have learned to look at Cancer differently:
    I continue to hate Cancer, however now I look at what Cancer has taught me:
    To appreciate all of the little things that we tend to take for granted,
    to validate my feelings for my friends and family,
    To laugh more, and most important to
    never give up hope !! and so much more.

    You are and continue to be an inspiration; I am grateful for your positive outlook and love you dearly Katy O'Grady!