Till next
time…KMS
Wednesday, July 24, 2013
Tomorrow
marks the eighth month of treatment. Where did 8 months go? Well for me, I know
many long days were spent at Smilow. As for my A-team, many miles have been
spent on the road. No matter where the time was spent, it sure has gone by
quickly. Today was my last day of delayed intensification. Once my counts get
the memo and come up, I’ll start maintenance. It’s funny to look back to the
beginning and think, "when I'm on maintenance”, and here I am. I can
promise you it hasn't been an easy journey, and I still laugh and say it
doesn't feel real. I can't possibly have cancer. As I tell my friend, we’ll
wake up and say wow, Katelyn handled that really well. While it doesn't feel
real I have daily reminders of what I have gone through. I told Chris just the
other day that no one told me I would have this much neuropathy and he looked
at me and said, “would it have changed your mind to get treated?” As if that
would have ever been an option. I’m too damn stubborn to let cancer win. While
it’s easy to watch me cruise around in my braces, it’s definitely not how I
imagined I would be starting maintenance. Cancer has taught me a lot, that’s
for sure. I’ve looked fear in the eyes and overcome. Every day I see myself getting
stronger. While it never happens as quickly as I would like, I continue to make
strides. Sometimes it's just all in my head, so everyone says. I say it's just
my personality and that I put a lot of thought into everything I do. I have
thought long and hard over the past 8 months, but one thing I’ve never asked myself
is “why me”, because I truly believe everything happens for a reason. Cancer
may not always be easy, but it teaches you some valuable lessons, strengthens
some important relationships, and for this alone, I wouldn't change my
diagnosis for anything.
Sunday, June 16, 2013
I guess I have been MIA lately. The first couple weeks of
delayed intensification were busy. I was at Smilow nearly every day for two
weeks. So I have a good excuse! I was off last week, which was a much needed
and nice break. I'm off until Thursday this week and then I start a five day
run. While it'll get busy again, I'm almost half way through this phase. Believe
it or not, I'm six months (almost seven months) into treatment. The time sure
is flying by.
I can't believe I've been out of school for a month. I've
been keeping busy with my physical therapy and little things around the house. I
also had some visitors this past week which was nice. It was nice to see some
of my friends. I hope as I continue to move forward I can have more visits! While
I may not see everyone as much as I would like, I continue to receive support. Everyone
at work put together a beautiful quilt with notes to me. It truly brought tears
to my eyes to read the notes from everyone. I also continue to get cards, phone
calls, text messages and even nakeds! I'm truly honored to be surrounded by
such supportive people.
(and of course happy fathers day!)
Till next time…KMS
Thursday, May 23, 2013
Here we go again! On to another phase- -delayed
intensification. Can you keep up?! We’re on a roll here. It’s going to be a
busy 64 days, something that seems overwhelming on paper. But all I keep
telling myself is, “I’ve already gotten every single one of these medications
before”. This phase takes the name literally- - intense that is. It’s every intense
medication that I’ve received over the past six months rolled up into one last wallop,
just to make sure that the cancer which invaded my body is gone for good.
I’ve been catching up on some much needed reading. After
graduating, I began to climb the walls so everyone wants to give me a project J. Not working was much
more manageable when I was busy writing papers and studying for exams. So now I
have to find other ways to keep myself busy. Smilow is helping with that next
week….I’ll be there four out of five days. Today was a long day too…I put in
some 9a-6p hours! In time I’ll get to work again, I just have to keep up my
exercises and eating.
One step @ a time…Rome wasn’t built overnight, even though in
my book it would have been!
Till next time…KMS
Sunday, May 12, 2013
Happy graduation day! (and mother’s day of course) I made itJ If this has taught me
anything, it has taught me that determination and hard work pays off. I achieved
my goal- -I walked across that stage and graduated alongside my fellow classmates!
It has been a long journey with a big pay off. I am happy to be done with late
night studying, 20 pages papers and endless exams. Although I am sure after
about a month I’ll be climbing the walls. I’ll keep myself busy with studying
for the boards and a few good books. Of course I didn’t achieve this goal
alone, I am thankful to be surrounded by some pretty amazing people. I cannot
thank Chris, my parents, some good friends, and family enough for their support
through school. We made it J
Here’s a sneak peek picture- - more to come.
Till next time…KMS
Wednesday, May 8, 2013
I know I
said this about March…but where did April go?! I cannot believe it is May! And
I am happy to say April is gone. April was a rough month. I gave a couple weeks
plus some days to nausea. Which I can tell you first hand is awful. The
medications just made me sleepy and didn’t make me feel any better. I am happy
to say I am feeling better. A little ginger is always helpful too! Of course
while I had nausea I lost weight so I am back to eating myself out of house and
home. Eating has become my full time job! Some would be jealous of my diet…ice
cream, hot pockets, ellios pizza and naked fruit smoothies. Those are a few of
my favorites.
On top of
the nausea, the medications I receive have caused me to have some difficulty
walking and doing some things like going up and down stairs. I know I will
re-gain my skills but this has definitely been a big change for me. God gives
you what you can handle, for some reason he is giving me yet another challenge.
Of course I am all over it with vengeance. I have everyone on my team helping
me get over this bump in the road.
Yesterday I had
my last day of chemo for interm maintenance. I have a two week break and then I
start delayed intensification. One step closer to maintenance!
I will have
some free time on my hands soon. I graduate this coming Sunday! I might not be
able to run across that stage but I will walk slowly and take it all in.
Till next
time…KMS
Wednesday, April 10, 2013
Where did March go?! I’m pretty sure it flew by in the blink
of an eye. On top of a busy treatment schedule, I’ve been busy with school.
Maybe that is where the month has gone. I’m not complaining because I’m one month
closer to graduation. We’re almost at the one month to go mark! Watch out- - I
might run across the stage! I’m checking items off the to-do list as I finish
things up and it’s definitely a good feeling.
Last Saturday I was able to take a much needed break an
attend Dubs on Defrost (DOD), a VW car show. For anyone that knows Chris or me,
they know it’s one of our favorite things to do in the coming months. While we
were at DOD, there was another very important car show (WiTW – Wookies In The
Woods for those that don’t know J)
being attended by some of my biggest fans. I’m not sure that thank you is
enough for all of the generosity, thoughts, prayers and support. In addition to
the support, I was honored by the amount of funds raised. While I owe a HUGE
thank you to Abe, I know there were many people behind the scenes. All in all, I’m
honored to say the least. In addition to saying thank you, I just wanted to let
you know that a good portion of the money will be going to a fundraiser that I’m
partaking in. I’ll be using it to ride in the, “Closer to Free” (http://www.rideclosertofree.org/)
ride in September to support Smilow Cancer Hospital where I receive my
treatment. I’ll be riding 25 miles! Once again, thank you for all of your
support. I truly feel honored to be part of the VW community and look forward
to attending WITW in the coming years.
Well I just wanted to check in, say hi, and send out a
special thank you! Starting a new treatment phase and school has proven to keep
me busy. Plus my naptime can be very time consuming J, but very important!
Till next time…KMS
Tuesday, March 19, 2013
No one promised me this would be easy right?! Well, the past
couple weeks haven’t been. I have been neutropenic (aka can’t fight any
infection) for a week or so now. According to my dad I am running on a ¼ of a
tank. Literally, that is what it feels like. I still am doing my school work,
making dinner and exercising, but everything just makes me feel tired. Some of it
is the fact that my labs are UGLY, but the other part is the #1 side effect of
all these medications is fatigue. In addition to being tired, I have had a busy
treatment schedule. I have been going Monday, Wednesday, and Friday for the past
couple of weeks. As of tomorrow I will be done consolidation. I cannot believe
it- - another phase down! J
I will have to wait for my labs to recover and then I can start interm
maintenance. While I am excited to move onto the next phase, I still continue
to take it one step @ a time.
Till next time…KMS
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