Till next
time…KMS
Wednesday, July 24, 2013
Tomorrow
marks the eighth month of treatment. Where did 8 months go? Well for me, I know
many long days were spent at Smilow. As for my A-team, many miles have been
spent on the road. No matter where the time was spent, it sure has gone by
quickly. Today was my last day of delayed intensification. Once my counts get
the memo and come up, I’ll start maintenance. It’s funny to look back to the
beginning and think, "when I'm on maintenance”, and here I am. I can
promise you it hasn't been an easy journey, and I still laugh and say it
doesn't feel real. I can't possibly have cancer. As I tell my friend, we’ll
wake up and say wow, Katelyn handled that really well. While it doesn't feel
real I have daily reminders of what I have gone through. I told Chris just the
other day that no one told me I would have this much neuropathy and he looked
at me and said, “would it have changed your mind to get treated?” As if that
would have ever been an option. I’m too damn stubborn to let cancer win. While
it’s easy to watch me cruise around in my braces, it’s definitely not how I
imagined I would be starting maintenance. Cancer has taught me a lot, that’s
for sure. I’ve looked fear in the eyes and overcome. Every day I see myself getting
stronger. While it never happens as quickly as I would like, I continue to make
strides. Sometimes it's just all in my head, so everyone says. I say it's just
my personality and that I put a lot of thought into everything I do. I have
thought long and hard over the past 8 months, but one thing I’ve never asked myself
is “why me”, because I truly believe everything happens for a reason. Cancer
may not always be easy, but it teaches you some valuable lessons, strengthens
some important relationships, and for this alone, I wouldn't change my
diagnosis for anything.
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